taking it for granted

from here

"how terribly sad it was that people were made in such a way that they get used to something as extraordinary as living."
-jostein gaarder

i've been missing b a lot these past few days.
the stress of balancing 16 credits + an internship + 4 jobs + a social life is starting to set in, and one more month without him is just less than ideal.
a month just seems so far away.
i know it's better than the 4 months we've already accomplished, but right now, 4 weeks is just looming over my head.

but in this state of constantly looking ahead, i'm missing out on now.
sure, i see the pretty trees starting to change, and i feel the crisp air on my face the moment i walk out the door in the morning, but i'm not really drinking it in.
i'm wishing my days away.
i don't want to be that person that stops admiring the beauty and stops being thankful for every moment; i don't want to get used to living.
this is my reminder to myself to get out there and live.
whether my best friend is by my side or not, i need to live.
this last month alone will be the best month yet.
i'm going to soak up every last drop of my wonderful life.

p.s- credit where credit is due: these thoughts were inspired by something here and i found that quote here


Anonymous said...

At least you realized this now and not when it was too late, ya know? It's hard to focus on the good things in life when the best thing in your life is gone. But you're right, the days are getting so beautiful and you don't want to miss out on that<3


B. said...

I love this. That awareness definitely comes and goes, but we must just try to keep cultivating it. There is always goodness right now , which I know you are an expert at recognizing ;)

Belly B said...

That's such a beautiful quote!!! Thanks for the reminder!

Belly B :)

Stephanie said...

i feel ya! i'm also balancing school + internship + and extra curriculars but i have so much respect for you that you're balancing 4 jobs!!
you can do it!

Ruby Girl said...

lovely reflection. hope some of the stress of your busy lift can settle down so you can get in the present as much as you'd like to. you're great! <3 www.rubygirlblog.com

Orange Autumn said...

That's a wonderful quote. Great post! It's so true, taking the time to reflect on where you are is important.

Alana said...

Amen! I am the worst about wishing my life away. In high school, I wanted to be in college. In college, I wanted to be a teacher. If I was single, I wanted to be dating, and of course while I was dating I wanted to be married!

I'm starting to get baby fever already, but I keep reminding myself to take my time. For the moment, I'm exactly where I want to be.

Katya said...

I really like this post. Way to keep things in perspective. :)

themaryanddyerblog said...

Love that quote - it is so true too!! Thanks for sharing, xox.

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Hi! I'm LiLi! said...

oh! i love your photo header. :)

anyway, it's 1:36am and i should sleep. :)

i will come back soon. i was blog hopping and forgot about the time.

xoxo LiLi
Thinking Out Loud

dana @ wonder forest said...

lovely. get out there girl!
xo dana

Emily said...

Oh I know exactly how you feel. The days just drag! I get to see my love in one month... But it seems like forever away. Hang in there!!

Mr. Taylor and his Lady said...

what a perfect post! thanks for sharing girl!
xo TJ